Am I wrong? I spent all day yesterday looking for the size my ovaries should be and my conclusion is that mine are tiny. Teeny tiny. They are not pleasingly plump. This does not bode well for my future fertility does it. Ovaries start off around 10 cm each from what i can tell and as you get older they get smaller, and smaller and smaller until they shrivel up like prunes... or something like that.
As I said to my husband through tears yesterday it is not just about this pregnancy, but about the next one too. We would like two children, are we dreaming? Are we just too older for that to be possible? And now we have to wait three months before we see our doctor again and find out for sure what this all means for our chances.
Then, of course, because life likes to mock me, we are going to be on vacation in Europe for most of August. This is a combination of trips to visit my husbands family who I have never met and a week with my family in Spain. My father has terminal cancer and wants to spend time with us all before he gets too sick. But right now, in my head, it's just another month we will have to wait before we can get some treatment.
And another delay before our baby comes.
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